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Sunday, November 08, 2009

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 14:36:34 GMT

昨天我寫得累的時候小睡了片刻，醒來反而頭痛。
突然做了不顧一切的決定，卻不知道是否有執行的一日。

柏林圍牆倒下的這一天
我有感自己都想倒下
就當作是
湊一湊熱鬧
可以嗎
只怕都沒有人關心這瑣事一則

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 14:14:00 GMT

when can i stop pretending as if i really have a child,
and write unendlessly on teaching parents how they are supposed to teach their kids?

when can i read the magazines i bought and actually want to read and underline key ideas to put into my journal?i don't think reading magazines is something I can do at work. it's just too...obvious.

Friday, November 06, 2009

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 12:41:31 GMT

已經想好了三個月後的那份禮物

間直不可理喻

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 09:33:11 GMT

if an illusion can be real
for someone else
i wish them well

when my sanity is at stake, I don't mind juggling surrealism.

Monday, November 02, 2009

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 10:39:14 GMT

MT: I m glad i didn't get those things...
MJ: We are so generic...
ML: It's hard not to be generic.

U got an idea?
I do, sit at home and rot.

well, u c, that's something new and
that's what the corpses do.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 09:09:02 GMT

MT: I really don't mind sitting in a cafe and watch the world goes by. Who would mind doing that?
ML: I can probably do this for a day or two, I can't do that forever.
MT: I don't mind doing that for the rest of my life.

Observing the fact that the world goes on fine without me is not particularly to my liking.
Not because I prefer to be something big in this world, but because it is harder than you know, feeling one's presence.

I go on judging myself, when no one is judging me --- one of my inscrutable defects.

When I walked out of someone's life, the least I could do was to leave a note with the estimated time I'd be gone. Be it forever. I do think someone deserves to know. Someone deserves to know that you'll be dead, the next day. Someone deserves to know that however far he or she goes, your tombstone won't be found, because you are dead, the other way.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 19:12:10 GMT

我在工作上重新學習和山羊座相處。

工作上可能山羊座是很好的合作伙伴。
2 x Capricorn + 1 x Taurus
14/1 + 16/1 + 28/4

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 07:36:48 GMT

just when i thought i m finally done with the book
can't believe i missed out on another audio file. i never check hotmail.
I NEVER DO!
and i hv 3 other files to complete aside from that.
FML - FML - FML - FML - FML - FML

arrrrrrgh, and i suppose i can only charge at most 0.35/ word
= 22000 x 0.35 = 7350 -
wtf
wtf
wtf

Monday, October 26, 2009

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 07:24:47 GMT

靜不下來的時候聽 hope sandoval
靜得可怕的時候聽 hope sandoval

虛靜中一點聊浪
恐怕只聽到了諧謔

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 12:50:04 GMT

Since today ma said: thought about buying anything lately? you'll soon get your paycheque...

a dress to die for. have a thing for thin straps close to one's armpits.
does La Perla in Hong Kong have their RTW in store?
I guess no. and i hv enough bras, no use in getting too many when you won't grow another pair of breasts.

Haunted by these hallucinations, I thought I saw you standing on my balcony just now, how creepy is that? But it’ll soon be Halloween, why should I care, not like it’s the first time I got thrown into a state of shock. I used to be a real AllyMcbeal fan, I still have the DVDs and can probably recite a few of the Ally Mcbealism. I remember she was constantly having these hallucinations. Back in those days, I thought they are something to laugh at (it was after all a comedy) but now when I am close to talking to one, I’ll kill myself to have them dead.

I wish you were less invincible, because I am thrusting at something that isn’t even there. If I can’t hurt you, how am I supposed to hurt my fists? How am I supposed to know that it does hurt?

M.Y.'s new cd is not bad at all. i still believe in 'innocent before proven guilty'.
and if i declare you my friend, will you stop showing up on my balcony, please?

待你好/能講到做到/你是最親的人/懷恨多恐怖
何必怨你/懷著企圖/明天你我也漸老
何必計較/誰錯都好/情感也要/信命數